It's all gone , with the Empty Promises you made . 

 Tourniquet By Evanscence 

I tried to kill the pain
but only brought more
I lay dying
And I'm pouring crimson regret and betrayal
I'm dying praying bleeding and screaming
Am I too lost to be saved
Am i too lost?

My god my torniquet
return to me salvation
my god my torniquet
return to me salvation

Do you remeber me
Lost for so long
will you be on the other side
or will you forget me
I'm dying praying bleeding and screaming
Am i too lost to be saved
Am i too lost?

My god my torniquet
return to me salvation
my god my torniquet
return to me salvation

My wounds cry for the grave
My soul cries for deliverance
Will I be denied christ
tourniquet
My suicide

If i make a tragic story, i would make this quote : 

Tourniquet , stops the bleeding, but, leaving it there for too long, making it your grave. My tourniquet, leave me soon. Before, i die from you . 

I thought of many things yesterday .. one of them is about my mother and it goes like this : 

I thought, the things that you do was just ruining my life, but now i know, instead of my enemy, you were my best friend .. You guided me through life, teaching me what's right or wrong. I'm grateful for everything. 

I reflected a lot these days.. i wish that i would become something better instead of ruining my LIFE.